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Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts
Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts

4 January 2023

Challenges (2023)

 

General

  • Xenia upset not going to Frida
  • Lost my iPhone to trade in. At door all along!
  • Computer malfunction at Pickleball + wrong lens
  • Fran not pay rent (did).
  • Mum buy Sam a house.


Brick wall crack

  • Email from Ed
  • Realise overhanging
  • Horrendous night & day
  • Overwhelm


Nepal 

  • High pulse in Kathmandu: terrible night of worry.
  • Tiger Tops lost wallet
  • Forget Life Straw
  • T-shirt’s too small
  • Dirty boots: Wash at airport in Kathmandu & Sydney. Worry on plane → Dex
  • Chaos at Kathmandu airport


100 - 500 lens scratches

  • Spider web
  • Hardly visible straight on
  • Not effect telephoto


Health

  • Pulse at 116 on oxymeter. Do or die. 
  • Pulse mean end of dex?  
  • Bad cold
  • Skin cancer lesion on shoulder
  • Sight blurred
  • Face xma


Finances

  • Money scarcity
  • Regret didn't invest cash
  • Body corp special payment for garage leak > $20000
  • Body corp special levy and levy increase
  • Tax % on home: Delay find out
  • Tax worries: Pay a lot ($4500)
  • Inflation, feel should increase rent but no confidence
  • Car oil x 3: Still coming.  Need another car?
  • Mum buys Sam a house.


Mack

  • Stairs
  • Grief at passing
  • Feeling constrained with all looking after, no travel
  • Blow up with Liza
  • Getting home in time for Mack (Bowling, Dunn Swamp)
  • Take on Liza stress (Antarctica)
  • Urge to lash out at Liza


Dex & Cosgrove

  • Chesters not give me dex. Get hold of dr. Get at Blooms.
  • Worried Cosgrove can see what is prescribed. Day of worry.
  • Cosgrove appointment without dex. His concern re extra 1 month dex.
  • Worried re regulator, need to minimise dex. Worried about extra dex for Antarctica.
  • Brintillix visibility
  • Red Bull icky high


Antarctica

  • May have to do video. Indian guys not get visa. Richard not coming due to daughter. 
  • Get ATO tax SMS
  • Day of buying hard drive. 
  • Marcus, Tanya, Renata and slideshow
  • Psyche on fire at night. Walk ship. Lack of sleep. Sense of hell. Being tortured by demon. Imagine jump in ocean. 
  • Admit to Gavin I am depressed. Not do slideshow. 
  • Self consciousness in talkative group.
  • Happy when landings not happen. 
  • Regrets: Chinstraps not leaping.  King penguins not with iPhone and not low down x 2.  Not spend more time on deck.
  • Gavin want us to do video interview.
  • Tanya photo of albatross and sunset and iceberg.
  • Extreme air headedness. Lose room key over and over. 
  • Extreme stress of photography zodiac. Think lost iPhone. Steal life jacket under watch. 
  • Hanna upset with me re close to seal.

4 January 2022

Challenges (2022)


Finances

  • Inflation high: eating into my savings 
  • Didn't invest to earn dividends 
  • When invest?
  • Hesitate to ask Martin to pay more rent
  • Extra $2500 tax
  • Obsessive index viewing & then avoiding
  • Mum outgoings for Sam & Matt
  • Jo verse me
  • Bank: Money didn't come through for two days
  • $ 25 000 for Arctic trip


Mack & Liza

  • Blood test: $250
  • Arctic pet sitters
  • Antarctica put off telling Liza
  • Liza not having him overnight
  • Putting him in for a heart scan


Car

  • Radiator:  Gavin saw me stressed and running.  Cost $500.
  • Fine for seat belt & no registration.  $1000 plus


Home

  • Getting new housemate (after Christina)
  • Garden wall shifts
  • Martin's room: mould, shower
  • Christina's bed
  • Floor stains, especially my room, Martin room
  • Shower potential leaks


World events

  • Ukraine war
  • Novak visa debacle: Made me embarrassed to be Australian


Health

  • Lump on hand and foot
  • Blood in stools
  • Excessive meds in blood?
  • Stool sample shame
  • Blood pressure high with dr
  • Graeme ill with cancer
  • Booster shot:  Feel crook for a day
  • Sick in South Africa


Macbook Pro

  • Not get 4 gig: Spend $1000 on ssd drive
  • Battery: Worried only lasted few hours. Delay testing it properly.


Weight

  • Weight on stomach


Cosgrove

  • Having double for 3 months, get known?


Xenia mum

  • Angry, making her have tube in stomach. 
  • Xenia upset she in hospital, still not sure if she wants her to recover.


Antarctica  (false start)

  • Mack and Liza. Say yes to Gavin?  Lose his respect?
  • Renew passport: get back in time?
  • My photography good enough
  • Cosgrove: Need meds early, will be able to get appointment before meds run out.


Antarctica  (2023)

  • Unhappy I must pay $2000 for Richard and my cabin. Eventually have it out with Gavin.


Before Arctic

  • Dark night of soul: camera.  Next day hiking with old camera.
  • Anxious not up for it.
  • Spent 20,000 and more.
  • Gavin says do research.
  • Body corporate: shower and concrete leak. 
  • Martin’s room ceiling and shower.
  • Richard not like Canon 90d (photography business so in the know)


In Arctic

  • Richard not bring camera
  • Risk of running out of meds. Stress of Longyearbyen: will be able to get ?  Terrible day of 5 - extreme fatigue and stress.
  • With lessons on zodiac, unable to photograph
  • Customs in Oslo leaving - not realize passport.
  • Strike delay effect on Liza. 
  • Norway customs especially coming home. 


Flight to Cape Town

  • 1 hour in Cape Town, worried not enough. Actually brilliant.


Wisdom Trove

  • Google algorithm cause 75% reduction in traffic.
  • Wordpress & Plugins need upgrading but hesitating


6 September 2021

Challenges (2021)


Finding new housemate

  • Leave many months 


Glass partition

  • Anxious won't fit, not careful measuring


Electricity

  • Electricity problem with partition
  • Electricity problem upstairs - cutting out


Car

  • Overheating


Mack and Liza

  • Kidneys
  • Mack to vet every 4 - 6 weeks


Nic and site

  • Feeling not up to it
  • Wanting to radically change my first go (logo too)


Wisdom Trove

  • SEO issues
  • Gavin launch damp squid - so much time
  • Security issues and hack

9 January 2020

Challenges (2020)

  • Return ticket to Joberg cancelled
  • Nic session to Eckhart group
  • Housemate anxieties: few responses, will Heather accept?
  • Heather not pay cash
  • Lost AirPods
  • Session with Xenia re Tina
  • Heather leaves
  • Covid
  • Dividend funds slashed

3 January 2019

Challenges (2019)


Dex

  • Dex addiction (first half of year)
  • Days of no dex (3 - 12 day first 6 months)



Health concerns

  • Blood pressure
  • Bladder


More

  • Sense of rush and non-progress with functionality spec
  • Sue no will
  • Wordpress white screen of death after edit replace (thank you back up)
  • Lilo malarkey: self conscious about email to Sharon
  • Aimee, Sharon, Lydia walk stilted, self conscious. Anxious with Sharon after coffee.
  • Car with Kate - relaxed despite chaos.
  • Martin complain re train noises.
  • Car mirror knocked off.
  • Upset re destruction of mankind. Pissed off with nature.
  • Pressure to get car serviced before going away
  • Kate gives notice
  • Missing my flight from Joberg to Cape Town
  • Day after day waking 2 - 4 am, tired later in day
  • Sydney fires and drought

1 August 2018

Challenges (2018)


Meds

  • 3 major withdrawals from meds, one lasting 6 days
  • Real meds addiction
  • Worried re dr and meds (Melbourne)


More

  • Development next door
  • Aimee editing oh no
  • Markets crash temporarily before money out
  • Late to dr x 2
  • Mum and the loan - upset with me
  • Martin rent increase
  • 5 year Dani anniversary

6 July 2017

Challenges (2017)


Development next door

  • Greg development
  • 47A Development
  • Lawyer meeting & unhappy re developments


Finances and emigration

  • Nedbank or Finglobal?
  • SARS tax audit
  • No reply from Sharon or Nedbank re trust docs



Mind

  • Obsessive thoughts in Cape Town - coming off pills
  • Self conscious in conversation - grasping for topics
  • Numb emotions with new pill


House and housemates

  • Srini unhappy re door off and work in his room.
  • Mal the plumber not coming - under pressure
  • Anger with Sharmista
  • Key to garage lost for day.
  • Guest bed creaky
  • Vanity wonky
  • Rushing DIY - feeling stressed, under pressure to advertise asap
  • Kate will leave
  • Slow Internet
  • Kate’s car with spark plugs. $540, not working.
  • My car, where keep it? 


More

  • Yogi high, and lashes out.
  • Chrisel boyfriend and shame
  • Mind low ram
  • Cut finger
  • No dex for 48 hours.
  • Roger moodiness in Tasmania
  • Wedding site banned
  • Sore back
  • Liza and vet, Mack anxiety
  • Shy and reserved in 1st part of Cambodia

2 February 2016

Challenges (2016)


Challenges

  • 4 story flat next door + development behind
  • No hiking - housebound with house
  • Strong fatigue with meds, life becoming little
  • Scarcity - "new reality"
  • Self conscious - no conversation. 
  • Brain - bad memory / RAM
  • Trump and Brexit
  • Dani profile pic


Resentment

  • Resentments - Sue
  • Liza and the vet
  • Resentment - Chris (taking over conversation at Eckhart)
  • Resentment - J (not sharing)


Cape Town

  • Reduced Zyprexa increased obsession?
  • Knock nose at Silvermine
  • Heart hiccups
  • Money from trust. Resentment with mum for her silence.
  • Sharmista leaving (and not paying rent)
  • Srini leaving ?
  • Chrisel boyfriend
  • S longing
  • Scarcity verse South Africans.  "Lost so much."
  • Getting older: appearance, wrinkles under eyes, losing out sx
  • Stomach fat

12 October 2015

Letter to Carpet Court

Hi Hai

I was away last week, hence the late reply.

I am afraid I’m not satisfied with $1300. I said it was essential to me it was a fair amount. Here are the reasons why this is not the case.

Reason 1: Confirmation that installation was badly done

I’ve had two professional floor installers come through to quote on completing the job recently as I'm too busy to do it myself right now. Both were shocked by the poor quality of the installation and encouraged me to take action with Fair Trade etc.

List of issues that they highlighted:

- In several places, one can feel a significant dip under the planks and an analysis below the planks shows unevenness much greater than there should be. No analysis of floor level was done at all. I don’t think the installer even had a spirit level with him.
- No 3 mm expansion gap left in many places places - photos taken straight after installation with date metadata embedded in file.
- Boards with bits missing at the corners but installed anyway.
- No thought given to placing planks to reduce repeat patterns - especially important with this particular product where there are ONLY 4 repeats.  The product installation instructions clearly say you should have several boxes open at a time to plan this. This was not done. The mark on every 4th plank I hated may not even have been an issue if this had been done and they weren’t all been placed next to each other in crucial places like the corridor.
- Really crude cuts of the planks along the door jams. It would have been so much better to cut under the door jams with a multi-tool. It’s so easy to do and the saw costs less than $100.

- And especially, no advice given to remove skirting boards and install them on top of the vinyl. My skirting boards are nailed on and extremely easy to remove. Just about every single company I’ve spoken to in my research since including other Carpet Court franchises since warns against trim on this product - looks extremely cheap and there’s no need at all to use it.  Why the scotia?  Surely not for the margins?

Reason 2:  No way did I receive 36 boxes

When I asked Alex how many boxes were delivered a few days after installation, he looked carefully into the system and said 35. I was surprised because David left all the empty boxes and I carefully counted 13 which made 33 in total.

I recently meticulously measured and documented the vinyl boards installed and it came to just over 23.5 square metres.  Even with 5% waste, that’s no more than 14 boxes laid. As you know, there were 20 boxes left over.

I believe 33 boxes or 34 was delivered at most. But I’m willing to concede what Alex said the day I came in: 35.  Absolutely no way 36 boxes.

What I am prepared to accept as a fair credit offer

I believe its fair to pay for what I was actually delivered:

35 boxes of vinyl planks at $ 65 per square metre = $ 4186
Very much in your favour as most companies, including other Carpet Court franchises charge $ 50 per square metre for Omega.

Installation of 15 boxes at $ 35 per metre = $ 966
Hugely in your favour given the poor installation, the fact you charged me $35 per square metre when most companies charge $25 or less. This is the easiest vinyl product to install - anyone could do it. Also the vinyl installed was not completed - no scotia applied or filling done to hide the ugly gaps at door jams etc. David was only on site for 7 hours, arriving only at 11 am.

So:
$7100 (total paid)
- less $4186 (35 boxes)
- less $ 966 (installation of 15 boxes)

= Credit of $ 1948

It makes my blood boil to pay for Scotia I shouldn’t have been sold in the first place.  But if you actually provide it to me, I’m prepared to pay for it at wholesale rate (NOT the $ 5 per square metre retail amount) and you can subtract this from the amount above. Maybe I can use it for something, but certainly not on the floors.

If not, then I want the full credit of $ 1948 above. Be assured I have measured my walls and know how much the length should realistically be.

A warning to take this email seriously

After weeks of struggling to accept and get perspective on all this and always having to wait ages for a response plus the confirmation from professionals of what I suspected: that the installation was very poorly done, I’m feeling increasingly irritated.

I’m usually an extremely accepting and accommodating person as you’ve seen.  But I have a dark side to my personality that comes out very occasionally and it can be rampant and devastating when it does.  And if it does, Fair Trade is the least of your concerns. It wants nothing more than to use my 20 years expertise as an Internet marketing specialist to spread the strongest possible disapproval of this job with eloquent words and photos on every single Australian site remotely related to floors as well as all related blogs, discussion forum, search engines, social media and online magazines (through my  journalist contacts) to create so much negative publicity that it will make your head spin.  And none of it will be an exaggeration or lie.

For the sake of our mutual peace, please help me prevent this from happening.  Simply respond without a big delay, offer me fair credit for this unfinished job and fair market rates for the products I decide to buy (plus take my feedback onboard re the installation for future clients) and I will let things be and continue to be friendly and accommodating.

Regards,
Graeme

7 February 2015

Challenges (2015)


Housemate

  • Body corporate car issue (Matt parked in visitors)
  • Millie falls & Xanax and pee on bed & eating plants.
  • Matt showering


DIY stress

  • DIY not fast enough]; self conscious with Matt
  • Trying to do the floors while Matt away
  • So unsure: Eva's help
  • The floor debacle
  • The concrete on the floors


Run up to South Africa

  • Hospital with weak legs
  • The leak and putting it off
  • Overwhelm with balcony and; going away
  • Going back to Sydney
  • Feet tight and hot
  • Jury duty
  • Mermaid Falls - lose people


Chrisel in South Africa

  • Self conscious with Chrisel, especially restaurants
  • Port St Johns talk
  • Chrisel - few, perfunctory messages
  • Thank you note humiliation


Melancholy

  • Zyprexa withdrawals
  • Dani on Facebook - see her partner
  • Long for relationship
  • P feeling


HDU for mania

  • Fear I am a sacrifice of God.  Hell
  • Depression after mania (extreme low energy)

7 February 2014

Challenges (2014)


Relationships and lack of

  • Obsession re Chrisel (should I make move or not?)
  • Feeling unattractive, bald, greying, ageing.
  • Rejections (Mandy, Chrisel)
  • S thoughts


Dani

  • Dani (especially email re new relationship)
  • "Oversharing" in my letter to Dani


More

  • Matt, housemate - super self conscious, being judged
  • Sick and zyprexa withdrawal (by mistake)
  • Leaking ceiling - copper pipes ?

15 February 2013

Challenges (2013)


Dani

  • Worry re Dani pregnant, especially after Xmas
  • Sense of helplessness with Dani + guilt
  • Anxiety re erections
  • Hopelessness after failure
  • Getting out of Hawaii
  • Dani outside house with new flatmates - feeling jealous.
  • Worry re Dani pregnant after Xmas holiday
  • Panic as reach 1 year anniversary.
  • Melancholy re pending break up.
  • Dani wearing sexy  jeans and not being able to say she was really mine.
  • Admission meeting.
  • Break up meeting
  • Grief over Dani 
  • Dani on Hamilton Island party on Facebook
  • Dani in Hawaii on Facebook
  • Take book back with letter, hear nothing
  • S obsession after Dani


Dex

  • Strong agitation later in day


Photography

  • Photo for Eva for dinner party
  • Sue photos

27 January 2012

Challenges (2012)


Teaching

  • Students wanting to leave
  • Stress of getting new class
  • Perceived rejection from Rosa
  • Janice shout at me
  • Photocopy lessons at 8 am - stress!


Dani

  • Anxiety erections
  • Pain when not work
  • Dani's period late 1st time
  • Guilt and indecision re Dani
  • Fear of rejection
  • Indecision. On tiger's back.


Meds and agitation

  • Agitation effects me later in day
  • Meds x 2
  • Addiction to coffee milk


Other

  • Sick on Orange River

31 May 2011

Challenges (2011)


Tax

  • Tax issue - $42,000



Teaching

  • Student rejections
  • Stress of what next class would be - scared elementary or upper intermediate


31 May 2010

Challenges (2010)


Financial settlement

  • Settling finances with Ally ahead of our divorce


Teaching rejections

  • First student who wants to leave
  • French girl (Int) - class too disruptive
  • Evan (thick glasses) - more lively, more individual attention
  • Pre-Int girl - not show us enough attention
  • Ron - 2nd time I got him
  • Sweet girl (ele) - changed mind once class mill
  • 3 princesses in upper - stayed
  • Upper class from hell - 2 girls + guy complained in class (interview skills)
  • Last class - 3 wanted to do test to go up
  • Fat face


Teaching drudgery

  • ISR's - huge waste of time
  • Marking essays
  • Electives a lot of work


More

  • Swallowing
  • Release of grief re Ally
  • Craig irritations

14 August 2009

Challenges (2009)


Depression, Sadness

  • Ally telling me she is leaving "Why couldn't I be enough."
  • Ally leaves (July)
  • Out of work for year and purposeless until CELTA course
  • Watching movies my only purpose


Celta course

  • My computer stolen before Celta
  • General stress of the course


14 August 2008

Challenges (2008)



Work

  • The end at Blackglass
  • Grugen: resigning after first day
  • Brain freeze during web design interview (question re project management)
  • Contract work for Blackglass
  • Month at Ogilvy


Depression

  • New Zealand - sleep, sleep, sleep
  • Sleep whole day, no future
  • Looking for work and dreading finding it


Other

  • Ally putting on weight (Xmas)
  • Bed bugs experience in Blues Point
  • Left my expensive tripod and gimble at the beach

25 January 2008

My limiting beliefs

The results of a questionnaire I filled in during therapy.

 


14 September 2007

Challenges (2007)



Blackglass stress

  • Wake up early (boats), then the dread on the ferry
  • Catalogue site debacle
  • Warren - maybe we should part (same as Louise, Kevin)
  • After holidays despair (especially Queensland)
  • Fabricmatcher - especially delivery
  • Hansen report -  miss skiing
  • Silence during meetings
  • Warren thinking me boring
  • Not wanting to do the translation
  • La Trobe: dread of marketing strategy document


Other

  • Bedbugs - especially night spent in Kerri's bed


16 May 2006

Challenges (2006)


Depression

  • Depression in Cape Town re SA returns verse my money
  • Financial regrets


Anxiety

  • House stress - where to put money
  • Stress of starting Agency Fusion, being rejected by Enterprise Marketing.


Camera

  • My camera getting stolen and not having it in the jungle.
  • Lenses debacle in Singapore.
  • Drop my 300 mm lens - get a monster size replacement


Other

  • Witels hike - negative thoughts re Ally and financial regrets.

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